I FEEL LIKE STABBING MYSELF WITH A PARANG!!!
AND I DESERVE IT...

a bad starting for this year
i will it will gradually show some improvement
my heart is bleeding over a moment of foolish act
i lost my precious time for revision
i lost of savings and all....
my 'xiao zhu zhu' is COMPLETELY empty now
i feel like i got rob!
but with much appreciation that they offered me a $5.40 meal