tell me that is just a prank call, don't crack such joke please
why? why of all sudden?
i am so sad...
mom seems calm now, i afraid she can't take the blow later
ah ma! you are gone.
there are so many questions i want to ask, but i don't dare
i called up leelian jiejie, through the cell i can feel her sorrow
she is crying, she sounds rather bad

when is the last time i speak to ah ma?
when is the last time we get to see each other?
it all happened last year, that seems so blur now
and i have no clear image of her anymore
i don't want to forget her
trying hard to search for our memories now
i just feel so bad that i didn't treasure the time with her when she was with us
she wanted to visit us again, she always wanted to
mom asked for my opinion and i objected
if she is here, maybe this tragedy will not happened

when was the last time i faced death?
when i was 10
i just don't know how to face it again, or how to console mom or even other relatives
i hate this kind of situation whereby the whole place is to be filled with sorrow
i wish all this is just a dream
let me wake up from this nightmare please...

going back to malaysia tomorrow
i will cry! i will stay by mom's side